weary

you couldn't have lied. you do not even know how yet somehow you understand enough to pardon.

so this burden of yours do i fear the weight of it, how much better than the others out there is it?

can you understand my despair, my angst, can you understand enough to put me out of the misery that is hurting you.

eternity in hell, and death by hanging... tonight fells like that eternity to. would it have been simplier.

I am not who I hope I am. I am unknown, and I am tired.

feathered-strength

while the ground slips from underneath my feet

see me standing on air.

while the sun turns grim and the rain fall batters my spirit

see me standing on air.

while my soul lies in unspoken battles, when the darkness of night time remains a monstruos shackle

o see, see me standing on air.
rising ever rising
firmly planted on this Rock!!

though lifes wind bellows unfairly
see me standing on air.

30 days of thankfulness: day 2

today i am thankful:

for

the people I share my life with.

that i have hands to hold, and there are hands to be held.

thank you God for the persons you have blest me with.

30 days of thankfulness: day 1

I am thankful today for:

snow

first sight {in my adult life}.... just beautiful.

I am thankful to God for the sight of snow.

immortal

come away with me
on a sweet winter morning haze.
unravel the battle that rages within
as the mid day sun caresses our skins.
to swim in the clear ocean of your thoughts,
to be entagled by the weeds of your disappiontments...

as the stars cover us, calling out to be worshipped and awed.
we shall be lost in each other, worshipping our flaws.
entranced, and enchanted unable to be demacated.

we shall last for however we wish or will.
we shall conquer the dark monsters of the sea.

to be lost in you
to be lost in me
to be lost forever-come, come away with me.

in the wind-out there somewhere

silent night...

baby boy hush now do not cry.

broken dreams...

engulf your soul like an eternal stream.


empty nest...

no one to love, no place to rest.

story of the world...

yet you feel too special to believe.

impetuous

no i dont need you anymore,
i don't need you making me feel so small
i gave you this seat you cling to i called you 'god' before then you were mortal.

no i don't think i can think about you,
life must continue, i must move....
why do i believe i need you, when did this lie become my truth.

see i am tired of wishing, and you sit there in my chair jubilating
because you think the tables have been turned by fate, alas i did it! i did it.

i will remain the Master in this game, playing with your mind, will and desire...
the tears i cry you will think you created, no i am still in control of this flaming fire.

i am tired of this mister,
i am tired of all this .... you think i am waiting, pining over the withheld gift-

no i am quietly planning my next move.

quietly.... like a theif in the night. SUPRISE!

undiscovered

not being good enough holds a man back
prevents him from showing how great he is-
he becomes open to sneers and judgements...

'i have seen better', 'is that all she has to offer'!!!

people make you retreat...

hence i remain in my cocoon
though a butterfly, i refuse to openly bloom
for my colors may not be bright enough.... for him or her.

One night only... and many more

Open your arms to me
welcome me into your embrace; wipe the tears from my face.
say all the things I need for you to say.

Don't mock me when I reach out to you,
pardon me for feeling lost without you-it just seems to be that way.

Kiss my lips but more my heart
tell me we can meet at the past,
to be the free lovers we once were...

Think of me constantly, reach out to hold me
why would you let me go easy...

I think of you constantly-LOVER OF MY HEART

round the bend

to love you
i could love you
so much love to offer
so much love to give....

enough for you
i have what it takes to keep just me in view

i know how to love you in truth
to love you i could.

*dedicated*

going deeper...

I write because i can
I dream because I must
I live while i have breathe
I'll die and embrace rest.

one step on the shore, taste the coming waves on your feet-
the begining of a passion to be at sea

lovers be
friendships end
hearts believe they mend

I write because I am alone
I dream because its not enough
I live with fear, faith and passion
I'll die-not this present second.

happiness

today i wonder what that word means- happiness-

today i think it is all relative-happiness-

something cooking under beneath the surface....

a good tucked away in the rippling sound of the thunder.

today i ask my self if i posses this emotion within-

happiness is fleeting...

joy is the dream.