weary

you couldn't have lied. you do not even know how yet somehow you understand enough to pardon.

so this burden of yours do i fear the weight of it, how much better than the others out there is it?

can you understand my despair, my angst, can you understand enough to put me out of the misery that is hurting you.

eternity in hell, and death by hanging... tonight fells like that eternity to. would it have been simplier.

I am not who I hope I am. I am unknown, and I am tired.

feathered-strength

while the ground slips from underneath my feet

see me standing on air.

while the sun turns grim and the rain fall batters my spirit

see me standing on air.

while my soul lies in unspoken battles, when the darkness of night time remains a monstruos shackle

o see, see me standing on air.
rising ever rising
firmly planted on this Rock!!

though lifes wind bellows unfairly
see me standing on air.

30 days of thankfulness: day 2

today i am thankful:

for

the people I share my life with.

that i have hands to hold, and there are hands to be held.

thank you God for the persons you have blest me with.

30 days of thankfulness: day 1

I am thankful today for:

snow

first sight {in my adult life}.... just beautiful.

I am thankful to God for the sight of snow.

immortal

come away with me
on a sweet winter morning haze.
unravel the battle that rages within
as the mid day sun caresses our skins.
to swim in the clear ocean of your thoughts,
to be entagled by the weeds of your disappiontments...

as the stars cover us, calling out to be worshipped and awed.
we shall be lost in each other, worshipping our flaws.
entranced, and enchanted unable to be demacated.

we shall last for however we wish or will.
we shall conquer the dark monsters of the sea.

to be lost in you
to be lost in me
to be lost forever-come, come away with me.

in the wind-out there somewhere

silent night...

baby boy hush now do not cry.

broken dreams...

engulf your soul like an eternal stream.


empty nest...

no one to love, no place to rest.

story of the world...

yet you feel too special to believe.

impetuous

no i dont need you anymore,
i don't need you making me feel so small
i gave you this seat you cling to i called you 'god' before then you were mortal.

no i don't think i can think about you,
life must continue, i must move....
why do i believe i need you, when did this lie become my truth.

see i am tired of wishing, and you sit there in my chair jubilating
because you think the tables have been turned by fate, alas i did it! i did it.

i will remain the Master in this game, playing with your mind, will and desire...
the tears i cry you will think you created, no i am still in control of this flaming fire.

i am tired of this mister,
i am tired of all this .... you think i am waiting, pining over the withheld gift-

no i am quietly planning my next move.

quietly.... like a theif in the night. SUPRISE!